Happy Year 2010, Pilipinas!

Happy New Year!!!

Medyo late na itong entry ko para sa New Year sa Pilipinas. Appox. 6 pm na dito samen. Oh well. At least nabati ko na mga kaibigan ko dun--I think.
Kung hindi-- HAPPY NEW YEAR, FRIENDS!!! Sensya, hindi uso saken ang GM this year.

May party akong pupuntahan (more like, dadaanan) mamaya. Wala kasi dun yung idol ko e--si Becca dear. Bibigyan ko na lang ng pagkain yung mga magpaparty. Haha! Delivery? And besides, mao-OP ako big time since wala karamihan sa mga loves ko sa party na iyon. Iilan lang. Yung may-ari nung bahay syempre isa sa mga yun. Pero, tingin ko tatamarin lang ako since hindi naman ako party girl.

Wala akong gift na dala syempre, kasi tinamad akong mamili ng gifts. Argh. Saka na lang siguro-- sa KCACTF event na magaganap sa gitna ng January. Ni hindi ko man lang alam kung anung date. Kaya nga may planner ako e, diba? E kaya lang... Chronic na `tong pagiging tamad ko. Hindi ko alam kung kailan ako gagaling. Gusto ko maging tamad for the meantime.

Nakakaadik pala ang pagiging tamad. No wonder marami-rami rin ang bum sa mundo. Ayoko maging bum! Huhu. Ang sad naman.

Nalulungkot ako dahil nawawala na yung pag-asa ko sa pag-arte. Sobrang wala na akong motivation para sa competition ng KCACTF. Natutuwa ako at nanominate ako--pero kilala ko sarili ko... kuntento na ako sa acknowledgment sa gawa ko. Kuntento na akong marecognize kahit miminsan. Hindi ako natural na attention-seeker. Pero sapat na ba ito na dahilan para isipin kong hindi ko na kailangang paghirapan ang scholarship audition?

I wonder.

Hindi ito sapat na dahilan para sa karamihan. Usually, though, sapat na ito para saken. Ang yabang ko. Nakakainis. Alam kong nageexist sa sistema ko ang kayabangan at katamaran, pero parang wala naman akong ginagawa para maalis ito. Sabagay, kumpara naman kasi sa iba... hindi naman ganun kalala yung katamaran ko pati kayabangan ko. Pati, kung tutuusin nga naman...hindi ganun kalakas ang kagustuhan kong makuha yung scholarship na yun. Kung makuha ko man yung scholarship na yun--aba! HIMALA! Magtataka ako ng sobra-sobra. Matatawa. Matatakot. Maiiyak.

Irene Ryan Scholarship...

Universal principle ang gawin ang the best with everything. Kaya naman kung kakayanin e. Kaya lang... may mga circumstances na hindi ko maiwasan. Isa na dun ang katamaran, pero ang pinakamalaking hadlang e ang scheduling. Wala akong partner. Nasa California sila ng boyfriend niya. Inevitable circumstance ito. Naibigay ko naman sa kanya ang mga script na kailangan naming memorize-in e. Ito ang ayaw ko sa mga auditions e. Hindi ako trained para sumali sa mga auditions. Hindi ko gamay ang mga kahinaan at expertise ko.

Wala akong alam.

Sigh.

Hindi magtatagal, malalaman ko rin ang mga bagay na malakas ako. Puro kahinaan lang kasi ang naiisip ko e. HAHAHAHA. As always. Akong-ako ito. Puro criticism sa sarili na lang ang naisip ko. HAHAHA. Typical.

However, dahil doon, nadidisappoint ako sa mga taong nadadaig ko. Nakakadisappoint dahil alam kong mahina ako, pero ang malaman na may worse pa sa akin--hindi ko maarok. HAHAHA---ppy New Year. Iyon lang ang masasabi ko. Hanggang dito na lamang.

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:)

The 30th

101st entry ko na to sa blog ko.

Honestly, hindi ko na alam kung ano pa ang pwede kong gawing entry. Dahil sobrang pabago-bago na utak ko magpakailanpaman. Kung napapansin niyo, minsan Ingles ang blog entries ko, minsan purong Tagalog. Pagpasensyahan niyo na lang siguro ang pabagu-bago kong isip.

Kakabasa ko lang ng Puwang ni Ar-Ei--I can never get the blog's name right.
Natutuwa ako sa mga nasulat niya--lalo na nung Dec 28. Kahit hindi ko kilala yung mga nabanggit niya doon, iimagine-in ko na lang.
Alam ko nakapagsulat na ako sa In the Eyes of Wonder, ngunit, tulad ng sabi ko, hindi naman sya ganun kaelaborate. Puro overviews lang ng kahit ano. And besides, magooverlap naman karamihan sa mga entries.

Manunuod ako ngayon ng Real Women Have Curves since medyo nasasawa na akong panuorin ang Nodame Cantabile. Nawawala na ako sa focus e. Panglimang beses ko na yatang napanood ang Hana Yori--hindi ko pa rin memorize ang sequence, pero minsan nakakasabay na ako sa mga linya nila--syempre in English.

Anyway, nawawala nanaman ako sa focus ng entry na to... wala naman talaga akong particular theme maliban sa pagaacknowledge sa blog ni RA. Nagwebcam ako kanina--na ginagawa ko naman usually kapag bored ako--dala na rin ito ng pagkavain ko. Masayang maging vain. Nakakafrustrate lang minsan kapag hindi mo nagagawa yung gusto mo talagang gawin.

Magtu-2010 na. Ilang taon na lang, matatapos na ako. Ilang buwan na lang, 20 na ako. 2 dekada. Ni wala pa akong malaking achievement na nagagawa sa buhay ko. Mayrong mga breakthroughs--pero it isn't enough. Sabagay, nothing's ever enough naman saken. Lalo na kung nagsimula na akong mangumpara sa mga kaedad ko.

Ang tanong ng utak ko: Kaya naman nila, bakit kaya hindi ko kaya? Bakit sila? Bakit hindi ako? Bakit, bakit, bakit?

E kung sana hindi na lang "Bakit?" ang tanong ko--kundi: "Ano kaya pwede kong gawin?"

Wala lang siguro sa nature ko ang maghanap ng paraan. Marunong ako magdamage control. Napansin ko iyon sa sarili ko. Ang nakakakonsensya lang ay isang paraan lang ang "damage control" sa pagtakas sa problema. Oo, nakatakas ako sa trouble, sa problema, pero siguro may mas rewarding pa para saken kung hinarap ko na lang mismo ang problema. Kaya lang, takot akong masaktan. Hindi ako ganun kalakas para magtake ng risk, kumbaga.

Siguro oras nang magtake ng risk. Pero, paano?

Paano...

Iyan na muna ang beginning question ko ngayong taon.
Imbes na yung usual na "bakit?"...sisimulan ko sa tanong na "paano?"
Dahil tulad rin yan ng pag-ibig (warning: may contain cheesiness):

"Hindi kita tatanungin kung bakit mo ako minahal; hindi mo naman masasagot iyon e... ang gusto ko lang malaman--at kung pwede, sabihin mo sa akin ang totoo--paano mo ba ako minahal? paano? Hindi ko kasi naramdaman. Matagal na kitang pinagmasdan, pero wala akong naramdaman... bakit wala akong naramdaman? paano mo ba ako minahal?" -quote sa unfinished product (orig.)

The End.

Winter Break

Wala akong agenda ngayong break.
All I wanna do over break is to eat, rest, and have fun.
Despite the fact syempre na may work-study ako.
I don't have time updating this blog.
This blog is meant for publicly recording my small talk. HAHA.
Parang trash can ng mga word vomits ko...

Well, not that it isn't the best blog. At least mayron akong outlet ng kababawan ko-- maliban syempre sa mga kausap ko regularly sa YM.
If you'd notice, I don't really record what I say in IM conversations sa blog...I guess it depends on the situation.

Anyhow. I do have outlets for my deepest thoughts that even I can't believe I have.
I'm just saying.
I guess not having a permanent place is already part of who I am.

I'll tell more soon.

-mhaby

cont...

I just realized that this is my 100th entry! Wooo~

Anyway, thanks to my blabbing of nonsense, I managed to have 100 entries of... yup... blabbing.

I just wanted to add this quote that I stumbled upon surfing the net:

"I think that somehow we learn who we really are and live with that decision." - Eleanor Roosevelt

True that! :)

-again

unimagination

I don't know what my passion is anymore.

Theatre has caught me and is not letting go of me yet.

My outlet is my acting.

My creativity is not of the extraordinary.

I cannot create something out of nothing.

I can take pictures and modify it--that is taking something and making it something else.

That's different.

One can have trouble doing that.

I learned that that is an insult unless it is your own creation that you are altering.

I am still bitter about it.

But, I am forcing myself not to care because the people who I love the most and who has the same passion that I have as of now told me to.

I am forgetting about because I feel that they care, and I do to.

I badly want to do something different, and with acting, I can make it possible.

But, I am not satisfied.

There is still something missing.

I do not know what it is yet, but I know that there is still something missing in my life.

I feel that I can do better.

I feel that I can do better.

I feel that I can do better.

Is there something that is stopping me right now?

Is there something that hinders me from doing something that I really want to do?

How would I know that if I can't even figure out what I want to do?

Sigh...

It is pathetic.

It's like I can't figure out who I am or where I want to be.

It's like I am imprisoned by something that can easily be taken off.

I feel forced to conform.

I feel that there is this really shiny marble that I want, but can't seem to get.

It is inside me.

I know it is.

But, the fact that I can't get it frustrates me.

What shall I do?

I wonder.

I really do.

OMG! I HAVE TIME!

LOL.

O ayan! Nagkaron na rin ako ng oras sa wakas... I have 10 minutes before I go back to my car and leave my accounting stuff in it and then go to some place where I can cram-study.
Yeah... I'm getting lazier by the minute.

Dahil lang naman to sa mga pressures sa life ko.

Anyway, recently, I have been in a dilemma... and sa mga nakakakilala saken... alam niyo naman na gusto ko agad solusyunan yung problema bago pa lumaki.
So, eto... at nakaisip ako ng solusyon.

Maraming salamat kay Jon Ian Bade.
Super thanks.

Salamat rin pala kay RA Masa dahil syempre... sya yung fallback ko if ever mataranta ako dun sa song na ginawa namen ni Kyle.
Syempre bago pa nabuo ung chords nung song... may chaos muna.
HAHA.
Pero all's well that ends well.
Tapos na ang problema...

4 more performances to go and I am D-O-N-E!

Thank Goodness!

Love sa lahat ng sumuporta... hindi ko na inEnglish to kasi hindi naman kelangan. LOL.

-Mabelle

Malapit na...

Sobrang lapit na!!!

Stressing out...

Exams...
Yung play...
Yung song...

Hay nakow...

Thinking Twice

I want you to know...
But I don't want you to go...
I want to tell you something.
And I know that this will end everything.

How long will this last?
When will it all end...
I can't keep convincing myself the same thing
Over and over again...

I must end this.
I must come to a conclusion.
I want to know the solution.
I want to know... I just want to know

When this will all end.

Paralogistic Eropoetry

Poetry.
Never have I been interested in poetry.
Poetry has never made sense to me. Ever.
I don't know why I suddenly thought of poetry.

Love.
Never have I been thoroughly interested in love.
Love has never made sense to me. Ever.
I don't know why I'm making a fuss about love.

Lies.
Never have I been thoroughly interested in lies.
Lies always are too obvious to me. Very much so.
I don't know why I still believe in lies, though.

Logic.
I have always had faith in logic.
Logic is a no-nonsense thing.
I don't know why I'm not logical at most times.

Poetry and Love are both Lies with no Logic. Lies without Logic is Poetry about Love. Love Poetry is Lies with no Logic. Poetry Lies in Love and Logic. Poetry. Lies. Logic. Love.

Confused yet?

Friday Update

Day off today.
Crazy week.
Not done.
I need to do schoolworks.
Not done.
Gah~~

Hmn, I have a lot to say, but I'll keep it brief.

Since the last time I wrote, A LOT has happened.

I forgot about the best small talk ever.
I forgot about that terrible feeling.
Our recital has come and gone. It was fairly good.
I don't know when our next practice will be.
Lolo John was not in the recital--I felt disappointed through and through.
I hope that he's still part of the choir.

I thought that was the last of the torture.
In the same week, I auditioned for the play. It went well.
Too well for me.
I got the lead role.
I am happy. OO naging happy ako.
Pero masyado yatang marami, halos buong libro mememorize-in ko
Nakakaloka kaya
... Ayokong may makabasang ingleserong friend neto.
Baka naman magleak sa mga kasama ko sa teatro, lagot ako. haha.

I am still confused in American history.
Tinatanong ko ba kung ba't ko kinuha? OO.
Kelangan ko bang pakawalan? Uhmn... HINDI!
Masyadong masasayang oras ko.

So, I think that's about it.

GOD BLESS ALL THE VICTIMS OF ONDOY.
I just wish I could've been there to help.
I'll just keep my faith to the divine and to UNICEF.
Twenty isn't enough, I know. But, that's all I can handle so far.

INGAT SA LAHAT.

Nagmamahal,
Maby

Lagging. Slacking off.

So, ganito.
I'm slacking off badly again. I never learn when it comes to procrastinating.
I do think it sucks that I don't get things done as fast as I wanted to, but I just need to gather myself together. I mean, seriously. Nakakairita kapag may stuff ka sa utak mo na hindi mo mapigilang isipin. I just don't function that way. Haha!
Yup, not a good habit, but at the same time, I cope (I think).
Eto nanaman ako at nagnanais na bumilis mga araw para dumating na yung mga araw na I really look forward to.
Isa na dun ang December. Kasi December 10 ang end ng sem. Pero siguro Wednesday na pinakaclose sa lahat. ;-p

Wala lang... no special reason.
...

The Longest "Small Talk" Encountered

There are times when you get so bored out of your wits that you begin to bug other people for the sake of passing time. Most times you succeed at passing time with small talk--and hence, you gain nothing much--learn nothing much. I had something like this a loongg time ago, but I got more than I expected, and I'm not sure if I am still glad it happened even though it was better than I thought.

"Do you believe in destiny?" Someone asked me in the most obscure way and in the most random moment. I let it go the first time. I didn't think that it was something to dwell on, but I said 'yes' anyway because I do believe in destiny, though I didn't know why. I believe that there is some sort of divine intervention at times and fate just enjoys playing games, but I do not make this a big deal. Small or subtle things are often overlooked the first time.

"Do you believe in destiny?" The second time around I still thought it was a question. It was rhetorical, someone said. I never understood what 'rhetorical' meant. I never thought I would have to. Language is complicated if ignored and left uncleared. You say Math is incomprehensible? I think not. Asked me twice--I still said 'yes'.

"Do you believe in destiny?" Three times. I wondered what the deal was. Again, I answered 'yes'. Rhetoric? It's an art of persuasion, but is it a question in need of an answer? I did not comprehend. I continued to go on with the conversation because I just enjoy catching up with people I knew but did not have a chance to get to know more deeply, but at the time, 'deep' was something that did not enter my mind.

He asked the same question for four non-consecutive times. The fourth, I would not count because it seemed unnatural--I knew that it was coming. Like someone said, "the best price is a surprise." Now where did I get that from?

This question clearly did not bother me at the time. I took it as a pick-up line. Pick-up lines are traps I usually don't fall into--I should have known better...

Destiny...

Hmn...

If I were not bored that gloomy day, I would not have bothered this person. Much to my surprise (which by the way is the best price... haha! I said that already), we were on the same page. I liked how the conversation went. I was not in the mood to be giddy, so everything sounded serious to me and sarcasm was the key. I had a good time, but now I kinda regret it. Why? Because if things didn't happen like they did... I would not have fallen for someone far away through some highly technological channel. It's true, you wouldn't know the degree of sincerity of a person through instant messaging--hundreds of miles away. But, yes, and I do surprise myself at times by falling for someone in the most awkward situations.

I think fate was playing around, and I got caught. I guess I wasn't fast enough to catch the signs. Lucky him for he knew better. Unfortunate for me for still wondering what the HECK went wrong!!! I usually think logically. I usually disregard things like these, but I woke up one day thinking--OH GOSH, I can't stop thinking about it... what now?! It bothered me the whole darn day. I'm just glad it's over.

So yeah, it might have been destiny. But 'destiny' doesn't always mean good, does it? I mean if it's said that you were 'destined' for that person--does it have to necessarily mean you were meant to be together? Could it also mean that you were destined to be enemies with each other? Hmn... I don't know... but I do know that I am pretty disappointed with myself for falling off track with my rationality. But, hey, does love really need logic? I usually would say YES, but I just realized that I probably need more time to figure that out.

In the end, we decided that it was a one-time thing. He keeps his word--and I think he's right for doing so. I have no idea what's going on. I don't think I wanna know. I've been through this, but with a different person and in a different situation. However, this much I know...

I do believe in destiny...

But does he?

^_^

Schedule Conflicts...

Today is Theatre Meeting! WHOOPEE!!!
and at the same time it is Choir Practice...
Both are of my liking, and both are important.
I don't know which to choose or what strategy i'd go with...
I just hope that whatever happens... it'll all go well.

I am in such a dilemma.

GARRRRRR...

P.S.

I might have a blog reconstruction someday... not soon though...
I just so much at hand right now... No time for anything else.

That's all for now.

mabelle

Well, lookee here... I was just thinking about uploading random pics... and eto yung lumabas... I guess fate lang... ;-p I should start taking pictures again?
Nahhhhhhhh.... ;-p

Urban Turbo Power Mode/Labor Day

Bwehehehehe!!!
Kamusta? Kamusta?
Blog muna ako before Labor Day dito sa Monday.
I'll be busy for the whole weekend... catching up with paperwork and readings. Kung wala pang nakakaalam (kasi wala naman akong nasasabihan talaga...), SUPER SUPER SUPER bagal kong magbasa... i don't really know kung ako lang to pero may mga times na kailangan kong umulit ng mga 2-3 times before ko maintindihan binabasa ko... e you know naman, bihira lang naman makaulit ng kahit isa pang beses kasi kung magbigay ng reading assignments e yung talagang 60 pages... (teka nga... hindi ko alam kung bat tunog nagrereklamo ako, e ilang taon na nga ba ako nagaaral?! dapat sanay-sanay na diba?!)

Pero hindi naman ako nagrereklamo (ah... e yun naman pala e...), sinasabi ko lang para may maishare ako bago magLabor Day (ahhhh... okay...).
So ayun, tulad nga ng sinabi ko... Urban Turbo Power Mode ako ngayon...-- yan ang uber ultimate todo na to study mode ko... pano naman kasi marami ata ako kelangang pag-aralan... wala na kasing day off after neto...
walang pahinga dude! marami pa akong duty sa school. so... tama na ang reklamo at kelangang gumalaw, galaw!

Parang pizza... pag hindi ininit... edi malamig... hindi na masarap... diba? So, ang point ko is... initin lagi ang pizza bago kainin... para enjoy... busog ka na... happy ka pa...

Speaking of happy...

ako ay...

babati ng Happy Birthday sa mga nagbibirthday ngayon...

Hindi ko nabati on time sina Jelorie "Meow" G., Kristine C., Kristia C., Dahdie Maan A., Ate Naxzie M., at alam kong marami pang iba... ;-p

So, ayun lang muna at magtatype muna ako ng journal entries para sa World Lit. ko pati Media Theories...
So ingat na lang lagi mga kapatid...

Regards na lang kay Monching ng Divisoria!

P.S.
Gusto ko sana si Mar Roxas for prez... pero... ganun e... Good Luck kay Noynoy!
('di naman ako makakaboto e... minor pa ako... *ehem*)

AU SA 1st meeting

The first metting of Alvernia University student ambassadors has come and gone. I'd say it was fun. One of the few times I've been in a social gathering here in the States.

We talked about a lot of things. There were a lot of reminders and stuff. I met a lot of people (though I don't remember the names of most of them), and I got my nametag, but had to return it because they misspelled my last name LUSCIA instead of LUSICA. Well, I get a little demanding in those respects.

Anyway, anyway.

Ayun lang balita ko sa ngayon. I'm looking forward to working for Alvernia as an Ambassador. I guess it would be fun. I hope I'd know all the names of the ambassador people, but I guess I'm just being too ambitious.

That's it for now. Gotta do my HWs.

mhaby.

Uber Dilemma

"uber na `to!!!"

slang for -- "sobra na ito!!!" (in Tagalog) or "this is too much!!!" (in English)

ANYWAY,,

this is going to be my expression for the rest of my torture-filled semester.

Yes, TORTURE-FILLED. Why? It's because of the following:

1. Like I said in my prior blog entry, I added Accounting again to my major, which makes it Accounting and Communications. Two majors. Ack.

2. I have 21 credits as of the moment, which adds 2K to my account-- 660 per credit overload kasi. DOUBLE ACK.

3. I have so much extracurricular activities in my line up that I think I have to let go of a couple because I BADLY have to graduate.

GAH.
Torture, yes.

But, but... Like my interpersonal communications professor said... LOOK AT THE BRIGHT SIDE. So, lessee...

1. Yes, I have accounting and communications as a major-- so yeah.. in accounting, in order to be effective, I have to communicate. Correct, eh? I can't do it the other way around. haha, but anyway.. in business, these two majors are an asset. And yeah, I can't choose between the two... so let's take both!

2. I have 21 credits; therefore, I added 2k to my account. My mom saw a course catalog of RACC, a community college in the city. It has several foreign languages courses, one of which I am taking right now in AU, and is much much much cheaper than my current. Ergo, if I asked nicely, they probably would credit that course and therefore I could drop my current and save me $$$1980. booyeah! Plus, I could get a refund for my SPA books. WOOT! HOPE IT WORKS.

3. Yeah, I'll graduate late. But, hey, I have two majors... what can ya expect?! And, probably, if #2 works. I'd only have to get rid of one. ;-D

Wooo.. long entry for me. So, enough for today...
Gotta do some HWs.

Ciao.

<3 mhaby

VA Roll and Classes

So, it's been a while since my summer vacation started. I planned a lot of things for the summer, but most of it didn't go as planned (as always). So, I didn't take summer classes, but now am planning to get a double major in Communications and Accounting. I'm torturing myself, but I guess I am a masochist, but just don't know it yet. Furthermore, classes are starting on Monday, and I have to make the most of it. I need to maintain my grades, if not improve it. It's a must for me. I mean, I don't even have time to groom myself because of stuff, so studies are my life right now. . .

bzzzt...

fast forward...

I read a blog of someone I know, though, unlike me, he forgot some parts of his childhood that I remember, which is kind of insulting, and at the same time, sad. So, I guess I'm not worth remembering (awwww.. huhuhuhu). Enough of the bitter paragraph.

Eh hindi nga naman natin masisisi kung malimutan tayo OR baka talaga kinalimutan yung part na yun.. or you know.. hindi na lang talaga sinali hahahaha...

THAT'S ONE OF THE REASONS I DON'T MENTION NAMES haha.. joke.. I will, if I must.
Pero, kung hindi ko gusto maging searchable (like a friend said), hindi ko na gagawin bwahahaha.

Last weekend, my family and I went to my sister's place in Virginia. It was fun yet mediocre. We went to my mom's friends' house though. It's a big place in Virginia Beach. Very nice and cozy, but sadly, no jobs. HUHU

So, that's about it for the day. Ciao, coz I have to fill out my employment stuff.

<3 mhaby

Monster DLP

Note: This took me a long time to post.

Last weekend, August 7 - 9, was a long weekend kasi we had a 2-day seminar in New York at St. John's Univ. It was a program focused on diversity and leadership hosted by Monster.com and sponsored by several big companies such as Target, McGraw-Hill, Verizon, etc.
It was a very enlightening experience. I met a lot of new friends, chatted with a lot of people, and discovered a lot of unbelievably great talents from all walks of life. It was incredible.

Anyway, ayun, kaya medyo naging busy ako. The rest of the week after I helped teach English at St. Joseph's Villa, and then this weekend, we went to my sister's place in Virginia. In fact, we just got home.

So, anyway, that's all for now.

Again, pictures are either on my facebook or my multiply.

Love Lots,
Mhaby

After a long wait...

I'm baaaaccckk!!!

So, I haven't told a lot of people na I went back home to the Phils. for a couple of weeks. Yep! I did.
I left the States on July 2 and arrived in the Phils on July 4, went straight to Misamis Occidental and stayed there for 2 weeks. My grandmother (father's side) was in the ICU when we, my dad and I, both from the States with my mom and uncle, both from Laguna, arrived at Oroquieta City, Misamis Occidental. It was a sad day from the start, but there were also happy times even when my Lola died. I was there during her last breath- actually, marami kami dun, pero I got a little shaky at first, reading the Psalm 23 of the Bible. It was a horrible and sad feeling.
So, we stayed in Mindanao for a couple of days to observe my Lola's departure from the Earth.

After nun, bumalik naman kami sa Laguna. One week din yun. My dad went back to the States on July 19, and I on July 24 while my mom on the 25th-- but my mom and I arrived on the same day -- just four hours apart at PHL (Philadelphia Int'l Airport). All I can say is-- BITIN! sobra.
I wanted to stay longer in the Phils. Even if wala kaming lutuan or TV sa bahay sa Pacita. As long as I'm with friends, and I have money-- I'm fine. haha.
I failed to see some of my peers, but I promised them na next time na lang pag nakabalik ako ulit.
Sad.
Anyway, I think my parents are going to buy a house. I'm not really sure what to think about it. IT'S VERY EXPENSIVE kaya.
I don't think it's practical, but really, it's not my money, and i don't really have a say about household budget.
BUT I TRIED. don't say i didn't.
they just didn't budge.

AYUN LANG.
synopsis na yan sa journey ko sa phils.
eto yung pics:

http://riabelle.multiply.com

ciao!
mhaby

i really should be taking a bath just about now

Really, it's like I don't have anything to talk about anymore. I just read some blogs. Good reads, they are. I haven't read for quite a while now. I just keep watching aznv.tv, which apparently is for invites only. It's like what GoogleMail did before. It makes sense--aznv does have good links, and is fairly more convenient than others. Thing is, my credits are not in yet. Sucks.

I should really be taking a bath just about now. I have to go somewhere--to the financial office and give my award letter and stuff. Really, why do I have to go through this hassle. Like I mind. I really don't. I'm just bored. And just when I finally decide to watch some asian dramas again, my credits are gone. I paid though, it still hasn't come, apparently.

Wait! A call just came in!!! Have to get back to you soon..

bored...and the award letter...

I just got my financial award package today... it still has almost the same numbers as last year... which is more than great for me! :-) I need all those money and more! -- the tuition is too high. higher than any college institution in the Philippines (I think...)

anyhow.. as long as i just keep aiming high.. i guess i can surpass it. I sure hope so.

anyway... i didn't mention this during my birthday entry.. when i bought gas last saturday, i noticed that the person before me in that same station left his or her receipt, and so it got attached to mine. i saw that within 2 hours-- 4:30 pm and 6:30 pm, gas prices fell to 20 cents. bwah! i find it amazing. :) 20 cents is a lot, you know!

anyhoots... it was too interesting for me to forget. what else? i got a dental appointment scheduled for tomorrow @ 12pm. cute.

uhmn, what else, i haven't looked for a job yet, and i have to do more adjustments to my TMS (tuition management system) coz i made a mistake--again. as always... grrr. how typical of me.
what else. oh. that's all.
im hungry. im bored. what could suck more? hmn.

p.s. (backspacing is such a pain) i found out that the prof for my mass media theory and applications subj got changed. bummer. i wanted DiPaolo. oh well, guess it wasn't meant to be for this semester.

think i could enter in the college paper this sem? hmn... im bored, might as well...
im also thinking of joining the PBL this sem... hmn... but i have to tolerate more BS than usual. oh well.. might as well again! don't care anymore... im as indecisive as ever... it's coz im bored. grr.

...weeee...

someone just pissed me off today..
i mean,
grabe a... anu naman kung nagpaplastic surgery yung kina-oobsessan niyang artista...
surgery isn't even a big deal anymore sa showbiz...
why be so defensive?
i mean, it's true na i was being stubborn at saying na this artist had cosmetic surgery, but my stubborness was based on facts!
if it weren't true, i wouldn't have pushed it, right?

i guess i said some unnecessary things to this guy, i think i hurt him a little bit, but i am not ready to say sorry...
my pride is still at high--so i just won't do it.
im just saying. i had to let that out. haha.
the shallowness! gosh!

but, eventually, i will apologize, i shouldn't have started the topic anyway... i know the feeling of being defensive and obsessed at some point, but if it were me, i wouldn't have defended the thing or person i liked at some childish point... i would've accepted the flaw instead... but that's just me.

and the situation might've been different

.:mhaby:.

-this was the artist that that friend and I argued about... this is a picture I borrowed from somewhere that showed the 'contrast' she had through the years... it was proof that I didn't show-- it's tedious to keep debating on something that i'm not even that interested with.

Happy Birthday to Me!

June 27!
My birthday.
Today!

SO many unexpected moments has happened today. First, the 'planned' lunch my dad had with his friends and colleagues, Lu and B'jain, was supposed to be in the little Italian restaurant that we went to for my cousin's birthday. I was disappointed because we didn't have any reservations at all, and it was a small-spaced eatery with only limited choices for a menu. But, as we got there, it was closed until 5 pm, and it was 12 pm at that time. So, the venue changed to the Tokyo Hibachi Restaurant at Woodland Avenue. I was kinda disappointed because I didn't want to see my dad's friends today because I wanted to be alone at home, celebrating my own birthday-- yes, I am a loner. Anyhow, we ordered and ate, it was me, my dad, my sister, my cousin, Lu and Lee Hong, and B'jain. Seven of us, though B'jain did come quite late. I was so pissed at first, but throughout the day, starting from the time I drove my dad's car, I calmed down, and decided to go with whatever will happen. So we ate yummy rolls and stuff, and told silly stories. We got to know each other and stuff.

But before we left, this waiter came and gave me a tiny square cake with a candle on top and icecream on the side and chocolate syrup as plate decoration. I was so surprised! They even had the "Birthday Song" music on! It was so touching! I wanted to hug everyone in the restaurant... It was the sweetest thing! It was like remembering my 15th birthday when everything that happened from the morning on was a surprise. Awesome! That was the best!

I also bought a lotto ticket. It's not my first time, though. It's actually my second, but still, it's kinda fun.

I think that's it. Other moments weren't that significant such as going to Barnes and Noble and Ulta (the makeup store) I didn't buy anything anyway, but my sister did give me a big box of Godiva chocolate. Sweet! Thank you, ate.
Oh! and B'jain gave me a card with $50 in it. Cool! THanK you ALL!

Lee Hong and Lu are really smart and cool people also. FUN DAY AFTER ALL! Thank God!

That's all... but I still miss my mom.

Love,
Mhaby

july 2

The 2nd of July is fast-approaching. This day is relatively significant to me even if there's nothing really specific to say about this day. If someone asked me right now what this day means to me, I wouldn't be able to answer that person. . .

All I can say is:

This day is important to me even though it hurts to remember, this day is still hard to forget.

July 2.

-mhaby

Potato Pancakes

Today, two well-know celebrities in Hollywood died.

Farrah Fawcett and Michael Jackson. Just two days before my birthday. It's an odd coincidence, but, at the same time, does it have some ominous sign to it?
Hmn...
Haha! I have become superstitious overnight, I suppose, but I guess superstition lasts for just a day for me. Two at most.

Anyway, I just cooked potato pancakes some time ago. It was good. Not amazingly good, but okay for a first time. I mean, I never even tasted potato pancakes ever. *Thinking* sooo... that's how it tastes!!! Interesting...

What else do I have in mind?

Nothing much.

Oh! I also made potato salad that was kinda raw... so, I don't know... I haven't even tasted what I just made... odd.

I guess that's all for now. I finished watching Clannad yesterday. Such a depressing story, it is. It made me cry... and I don't usually cry--which is why, whenever I do, I get ecstatic about it. Which is, again, odd.

Ok, I'm done.

Mhaby.

(I got lazy typing... so... )

Happy Father's Day!!! June 20

Hey there!

It's Father's Day today!!! I am happy.

There's me and my dad a full year ago! :)

I greeted my dad a couple of days ago, but, today, I haven't yet. My dad and cousin went to church today. I did not go with them because I have choir practice tomorrow in the same church, so I might as well hit two bottles with one stick, right? (Yeah, I know, it's 'birds,' but it's kinda mean hitting birds... not that I'm a devout animal rights activist or something...)



Anyway, I just wanted to greet all the dads out there for being just... dads. :)

I'm signing out now, my dad and cousin are both back from church. I heard the door close. Cool!

Ciao for now!

Mhaby

My Page Bugs

Oh, btw, about the YouTube section here in my page. Yup, I noticed that. I hope it doesn't bother anyone because I'm just too lazy to figure out what to do with it. I couldn't take that section off my page because it is actually useful.
Anyway, if you just ignore it, maybe it'll just go away on it's own.
It would take a long time for me to change the layout of my page again being that I am just a rookine HTML coder (or whatever it's called).

So, anyway, that's just a notice.

Thanks.

Ciao!

Mhaby

Updates

For the sake of posting something...

I did nothing crazy or significant today.

I cooked lunch, which I didn't do on time, so it became dinner instead. (Haha, well, my dad cooked lunch anyway.)

I folded my dad's clothes. I guess I have to finish folding mine as well. Hmn.

What else...
I sang...
coz... I just wanted to sing.

I talked to my mom. I miss her so much. I wish I went with her to the Phils., but with my situation here (paying tuition and having no income for my leisure), I think that would've been impossible. And besides, I still had classes then.

Hmn, I think that's about all I did today. Gosh, why can't I bring myself to do more exciting stuff?
Oh, it's coz I'm naturally a couch potato. Sigh.

Oops! Gotta go! Gonna play again. Hehe.

Ciao!

mhaby

Waitjustoneminute!

Before I go to sleep:

Lemme just recap:

I've had some interesting revelations today... hmn...

1. A friend of mine just told me about '13' and '12.' Well, '13' is supposedly for 'M,' which is, well, the first letter of my name. This friend of mine wasn't able to get that '13' in the past, so this friend settled for a '12,' and then I realized.. 12... for 'L,' well yeah, it could mean the first letter of my surname, but oddly, it's also the first letter of this friend's current 'one and only'. Destiny, I suppose? (Puzzling, much?)

2. I was able to read a blog of another friend some time today, and I found out something about a 'past,' so... it really is normal... interesting...
I am normal! Nice to know. Yay. (This person's blog entry was really sweet, though...kudos for the person! ^_^)

3. A person I used to know has "changed." (As I found out from someone)


OHkay! That's about it! Yay.
Interesting, interesting finds... They're all just theoretical though...
The world is too pretentious to be gullible.

As Rene Descartes would say:

"If you would be a real seeker after truth, it is necessary that at least once in your life you doubt, as far as possible, all things."

4:35 AM

is what the time is.

I just read a couple of my old entries. I noticed a lot of errors. It takes a lot of proofreading on my part. I don't think I'm a perfectionist, but as time goes by and I notice that I have this compulsive manner of getting things done accurately, I begin to think that I am.

Am I?

Hmn... I don't think so.

Seriously.

Good night for me!

Ciao!

mhaby

Odd

I'm playing my DS now--FFXII, but something really odd happened to the game a while ago.

As far as I can remember, I know I got stuck somewhere in the beginning of the game because they [my characters] kept dying.

An unclear picture of the gameplay. This isn't mine though... It's from someone in Flickr. Thanks, Nacho Proy of Flickr.com. ^_^

It's also because of the fact that my highest level character is only at Level 10. So, anyway, the odd part...

I started to play again just a little while ago and ta-da!!! Suddenly all the special techniques kept coming and when I checked their stats.... all of them were like Level 70s up... and in just a matter of minutes... ALL of them are in LEVEL 99!!!

Talk about oddities... Seriously.



Had to share that.



Ciao! -mhaby

Whew!!! Done!!!

At long last!!! This has been a long day in front of the computer for me...

Tweaking is so much work! As you can see, it isn't that extravagant, but still I spent almost most of my day tweaking this thing! Sigh...

Well, anyway, while I was doing this, I had my YM Launchcast on then I heard an unfamiliar song (Actually, most songs are unfamiliar to me, so there's no surprise about that...hmn...). So then I decided to look for a clip of it...

and i tried to paste it here...
and guess what? it doesn't fit my tight layout! haha. so i didn't want to risk it... ;-p i always do things small... i try to fill it all in a limited space... hmn... i wonder what kind of personality that is.



So this is a pic of Matt Wertz. I'm not much of a fan. I just liked his song one time, but I think that anything likable is worth recommending. :)

and if you wanna hear a clip of it just search it on YouTube...there's a widget right to the left of my page. keywords: 'everything's right matt wertz' :)

Anyway, thanks YouTube and google search for the pic! haha (I really have to start acknowledging my sources now...geez)

Ciao for now!
Mhaby

Updates...

i just imported some of my entries from my other blogs.

i edited my profile.

i still have my other blogs... it would take a while before i decide which to close down.

i am a scatterbrain, so this is what I get.

it's been a while since i first planned to rearrange my blogs... i just started doing it. i am a certified procrastinator.

anyway... just saying...

MY ENTRIES ARE NOW PUBLISHED HERE. including the ones in tagalog.

weee~ finally!

to RA: finally!

ciao!
-mhaby ^_^

BUM is ME!

I have a new active career right now...

and that is...

being in bed 24/7...

getting up only as needed (i.e. call of nature, meals, water break, and/or cramps)

sheesh.

i should be doing something, you know?

but, it seems as if i couldn't think of anything else to do.

gas prices are up, so i can't just drive around for nothing.

jobs are scarce-- and im not looking for one anyway-- coz if jobs are scarce for the people who need them, then i don't think i would want to look for one (but really, if i wanted to look for one, i'd surpass expectations, so it might be the fact that half of me just wants to lay around this summer)

i couldn't take summer classes, coz im already starting to pay for my tuition next schoolyear, and summer classes just adds up badly.

hmn... soooo..

lessee what i've done so far:

i played the sims 3 for a day and a half--and now my 'im addicted' gauge is finally down.
i played some DS games for a while-- and the same gauge is also down.
i watched so many asian dramas (this includes before-- i even rewatched some of them. im really picky with it) that i don't think i have anymore shows to watch. (thanks aznv.tv! you're the best! really!!! made my summer somehow!)
hmn... what else...

gosh, i don't think there's anything left for me to do than to attend my choir practices, which is every other week...
and to do some soul-searching.
oh! and i need to proofread and edit from time to time the essay that i've been working on for weeks now...

lessee.. i've done my resume, so I think I just have to look for something to add to it...

hmn... i think I'm gonna play my DS again...
oh! and maybe I would take a bath later today (not that I don't-- HAHA!!! but usually i... don't... sssshhh... it's just when I know I'm not going anywhere... sigh...)

hmn... lessee... my next agenda then is on August 7!
it's when I have to go to New York for the MonsterDLP conference.

sigh... i guess i have to pull through with it...
i had my call conference yesterday... it wasn't bad at all... i still wonder why i got so nervous about it... i mean, i didn't have to say anything. LOL.

so, uhmn... that's it for today!

I just needed to update my blog!

ciao!

mhaby

(and hi to my follower, cam! haha)

*wala akong ibang followers kasi usually yung nagbabasa ng blog ko e either walang blog or from other blogs na walang follow option.. haha.. sad... niwei! have a great day!*

Stardusk...

There are several kinds of one-sided love:
1. The person you love does not love you back.
2. You don't love the person who loves you.
3. You're off screen and he or she is on screen. (Ordinary person and TV personality)

Ok, so maybe what I said was a little off, but I think there are a few instances that one might wonder how people look the way they look. I say this in a positive way. How come there are a lot of beautiful people in the world... It's almost unbelievable.
Especially on TV. It's so nice to see these people. But, it's so easy to love them as well-- and so easy to get hurt by the fact that you know it's quite impossible to meet them personally and get to know and OWN them. LOL.

But, yeah, life has been unfair ever since... so why bother questioning it.
;-p

ciao! mhaby

4th of june. done nothing productive.

Yes. The title says it all...
June 1: I cleaned the house, made dinner, and swept the porch! Hmn... productivity rate: 57%
June 2: I made dinner again. Yum! My cousin and I went to Best Buy, Berkshire mall, and Barnes. My dad scolded me for sleeping in the master's bedroom instead of my own room. I thought I did the right thing though.
June 3: Finished watching Operation Love-- a japanese series half of the day. Went out with my dad and cousin to register for the Triple A thing, and went to Berkshire mall again to buy Chinese food.
June 4: (today) Is halfway through Hotaru no Hikari--japanese series. Is planning to go to school to return the books I borrowed from the library, and to drop off some chocolates for them to eat as well. Is planning to go to Staples to buy long bond paper for cousin. Hmn... will I be able to do these?!

Maybe not?
Maybe, yes...
Who knows. I just want to stay home, and watch my faves.. Gosh.. can't I just do that? It's vacation after all!

ciao.
Mabelle.

writer's block!

I'm having writer's block! mental mental mental block!

I can think of a lot of things to write--to cite or whatnot.
But, I have this scholarly desire to change my ways, change my style, and to make it more qualified as a top-rated written piece.

If only I had those ideas--without the emotion. I want to feel objective. I want to think objectively. I use my heart, my feelings, my moods in order to function, and I don't want that anymore. I want to learn to deal with the world. I want to be on top of things. I have never been in control when I was younger, and that's what I want desperately to change.

-- Just some random thoughts I have at this time-- middle of the day... pissed off with the mess all around me. Grrrr! I need to be alone to do stuff. It's my type of rebellion. Rebellion--it's not really my thing.

ciao.
mabelle.

Today, I'll live my life to the fullest...

Today, I'll live my life to the fullest.

Today, I'll think more of the future--not fearing about it, but embracing it; and I'll live to my present as if the bad is just a leeway to the good.

Today-- I am happy because whenever I'm not-- it's just another reason that life is more fun than I thought.

I have my dreams, and like everybody else, I hope it comes true. But, for now... just dreaming it and hoping it-- might not be as bad and frustrating as I think.

That's all.

Back to watching Ugly Betty. yay

the way things are...

when life refuses to go where you want it to...

Compromise.

I think that's the biggest word one should take in life.
I mean, things just don't go the way you want it exactly to go.
It's unfair.
But, there isn't anything you can really do when time just continues to run like it always does, and you continue to get older by the second.

Anyway, my point is. I should just live life with some regrets--because a life with no regrets, in my opinion, is not life at all.

-mhaby

to Virginia I go

Hey there!

I am currently in my sister's car with her driving and my cousin in the front passenger's seat. I just found out my grade for the Spring Semester. 3.89 is my overall GPA. It's getting lower and lower every semester. Hopefully, it ends here. I am going to let it end here.

The two last subjects that had the worst grades for this semester are two of the subjects that can be ACED easily. Both are no-brainers for the go-getters. I am not completely a go-getter, but I still was on my way to an A, when suddenly, I just was not interested anymore. I get confident, and then too confident. I guess my luck just doesn't work that well anymore. At least I have a 3.89 gpa anyway. I mean, it is better to be above 3.5 more than anything else.

Now that it is summer, it is time for me to recharge and gain my interest and motivation in studying again. I was just probably in the brink of breaking down, and that was my outlet. To cease good grades. Luckily though, it was during the end of the semester. But, I was tricked. Before that third test, I didn't know we were going to have a test! I only had 2 days to study, and in between, I had a show to be in. It's too unfair, but it's still my fault. I don't like blaming fate when fate was just trying to be fair to the whole--I mean, it's too much of a breeze for me to be a "star," and at the same time, be on top of everything. It's probably just not my destiny to be a "super person."

Anyhow, my mind is calm and collected now. I am ready to face my next semester, and I won't let myself down again. It's better to be hit on the back of the head early on than when you're almost there at the end. At least now, I know the consequence. But, it would have been a lot better if I didn't have to experience it. Oh well, I guess it's just too good to be true.

-mhaby

Major Change: Change of Major

I finalized my change of major last Tuesday, May 12, 2009. It turned out well--better than I expected, I suppose. I dropped two classes: Business Math and Interm Acctg. I, and added three: Media Theory, Interpersonal Comm, and ST: African-American. So, I have five classes for the fall instead of just four, which I'd rather have anyway. I could add one more--and have an overload again, but I don't have that much money. And, besides, I would get one summer class- I MUST, if I still want to graduate soon.
My new advisor--Mrs. B.D. is awesome.

Yesterday, I had my last two final exams. Awesome. Whether I did good or bad--I don't really want to think about it. I'll just wait for my grades to come out, and I'll know it then. But, for now, I just want to think nothing about school. After the exams, my cousin, my sister, and I went to the movies to watch Star Trek. I didn't expect to have a good time. I don't like Sci-Fi movies, but ironically, I think this movie rocked. I focused more on the actors and how they acted-- remarkable! They had great timing, and their lines were delivered brilliantly. I think the movie is cool. It deserves to be on the number 1 spot--at least I think it still is.

So, enough of that. Today is my official first day of summer. I need this break, but I also can't help thinking about looking for a job or scholarship. I really feel that I am going to be broke in no time because of my tuition fee. It is insane! I pray for the economy to be better soon. In the meantime, I will continue reading Shakespeare (the easy version of his plays and his life) and the diary of Virginia Woolf--and some random magazines.

Ciao for now!

Mhaby.

2 DOWN!

Finals week!!! I have 6 finals this week. It's horrible. It's worse than what most people have. I really need a life soon. My two tests today are also horrible. I may have a low grade in Theo (just for the test) and Accounting (OMG! and it's not only me...it's all of us... it's just so tiring to do--that's why I'm changing majors. My brain will be fried, and I'm not even halfway there!). I'm changing to Corporate Communications with, of course, a business minor, since I have a lot of credits for that course, 2 more classes from it, and I have the minor already. Awesome! I'm so excited with my change. I guess Math just isn't for me. I mean, I get it, but I just don't want to do it in my free time--nosirreee... Nope. I'm better at speaking and writing than computing. I guess that's the most I could put of it. After all these, I guess I'm gonna have to talk to Robert. I was kinda mean a while ago, not sharing my reasons fully. But, oh well, what can I do-- I was placed on the spot. I usually function better when on the spot (this is actually not true), but things have different circumstances from time to time.

Anyway, SUMMER is almost here. The first half of summer, I have for myself. The second half, I have to take one class--Business Law, to lessen the load for my minor. I hope my talk with Beth tomorrow would be GREAT, and also, I hope Sue would give me one more spot in her class. That would be awesome! I'll be exercising my voice the whole summer, and I would certainly be reading a lot. I should. I'll be a Communications Major soon.

Truly,

Mhaby

*The pic is during a Broadway trip to New York with my good friend, Natalie. ^_^

Is Stressing OUT - but still trying to stay calm and CONTROLLED!!!

Anywhooooot. I have to think of something to actually write about. Currently, I am at home-- on my parent's bed-- coz, they're not really here. They went home to the PHILS., which I would love to be in, by the way.

I have tons of things to do still.
I have a lot of things to memorize etc, etc.
I also have a lot of things to read and study about.

But, I've also been thinking. I just happened to pass by the Theatre Club profile on facebook, and I was like-- hmn, wouldn't it be interesting to have newer pictures and an updated site or blog space.
I mean, I don't mind posting blogs for the Theatre-- I think it would be really fun to do so, especially when there are pics included. The thing is, I don't think we have much time to get together though.

There has to be a lot of changes for the club...

That's all.
I hope I remember this tomorrow... as you can see, I don't take notes. Bah~

Show's Over

The Diary of Adam and Eve

"...was beautiful, surpassingly beautiful..."

I think it all turned out well--except for some minor mistakes--and some "I could have done better" moments... I could say that it was a success!

I was so thrilled last Friday--April 24. There was a bigger crowd than last Wednesday. We had more reactions, more laughs, more claps, more feedback--and course, more hype!

I learned a lot from this experience:

1. I learned that waiting is worth it. If things do not go as you would like the first time, then it might not be your time yet. Let it go, and there might be something big for you later. In my case, THIS is BIG for me already. I'm not asking for much.

2. I learned that good things happen after hard work. This I know already a long time ago, but it's always good to learn over and over again. It's good to be reminded from time to time.

3. Discipline is a MUST. Before a show, it's good to stay healthy, avoid everything not good for you or your-- "instrument," and make sure to make rehearsals a priority--I mean... practice makes perfect, right? How many times is the show going to be on? Once? Twice? Make the most of it.

4. Responsibility is a choice. I was chosen, I agreed therefore I chose to be in it--I'm responsible for it. I mean, I could've said NO, right?

5. Last, but not the least, HAVE FAITH. In the end, it's the only thing that you could hold on to. You may be surprised by how much it could help!

There, so I enumerated the things that I learned during the experience. But, most of all, I HAD FUN! :)

My goal was to surpass expectations. I surpassed my own--and that is more than good enough for me.

(^_~) Love lots,

Mabelle

I just read a blog today...

My dearest friend, Lissa has a blog!
Yup! I think she writes really well, which makes it a really fun blog to read.
I learned a lot of stuff too. Well, mostly about her, and her experiences, but at least-- that's learning vicariously, right?

Anyway, I'd probably link her page right here, but I have to ask her first.

Confession: I have a lot of blogs right now! I am really, really disorganized that way! SO, my decision is to-- close some, merge some, and see how it all goes. But, I'll do that on my spare time. And when is that, you ask?
Well, I dunno.

I have a lot of stuff going on right now, so I'll probably blog again later.

My boss is here.

Ciao!

Goggleworks

From factory to world of fantasy.
Yup! That's my description of Goggleworks Center for the Arts.
It's a former goggles factory...hence, Goggleworks.
Now, it's an art exhibit/kids' leisure center/senior's hang out/cafe/relaxation spot...
et cetera.

So, yeah... If you guys have time to drop by or happen to be just around the corner of 400 Washington St. Reading, PA 19607--please do.

I promise you, it's fun! Especially on 2nd Sundays when I read to the kids. I could read for you too. Oh yeah, yeah! Well, you won't know how fun that is unless you get to see it for yourself!

*wink wink*

^_^

Fun - Skiing, anyone?

Skiing!

My family and I went to Bear Mountain Creek here in Pennsylvania. We went snow tubing mostly. I wasn't really on top of my game. I didn't have the right clothes or anything. I advise you to BE PREPARED--`cause it would be twice as fun if you were.

I wasn't able to ski because first, we went there after lunch--we didn't plan an overnight stay; second, we needed lessons first before we could rent. Lessons take up sooo much time. But, if ever I were to do it again. I guess skiing wouldn't be that bad--I have a fear of heights, though, but most of the time, I pull through with it. It's about facing your fears at this age anyway, right? (I'm 18.)

That's my share for the moment.

A Question

My question: Why is it that textbooks are hard to read?!

Seriously. It just wouldn't stick!

Job Search Attempt

As I have mentioned, I want to look for another job. A job of convenience because:

1. I am a full-time college student (with major I am yet to disclose).

2. I already have a part-time job.

3. I am also a regular volunteer for two non-profit organisations.

4. I need sleep.

So, I've been trying to look for online jobs. Apparently, because of its supposed convenience, there are a lot of scams out there that one should be aware of!

My advice to all who are reading this... (Like there are any!?) is that DO NOT IMMEDIATELY FALL FOR ANY SCAMS. It isn't worth the risk. Be cautious. Do the following:

1. If search is from a search engine, try to pick sites from the top of the list.

2. Assess the site. Is it a well-arranged site? Are there any grammar errors? Does it look professional? Do you feel that it is legit?

3. Search for reviews about a certain job. Some reviews you can find helpful. Some reviews, however, you might notice, are made by the scammers themselves--endorsing the product/said job, using fake names, et cetera.

4. If the site and/or job is heard from the radio or legitimate TV show/commercial, then the site/job is legit.

5. Ask someone you know if he or she has heard about this certain site/job.

6. TRY TO DO THE ABOVEMENTIONED LIST OF THINGS if the site/said job is asking for money. Identity theft is on the rise.

So, I hope you'll find this list helpful. Being cautious and skeptic is being rational.

For additional news: Unemployment rate rises to 8.1% in the U.S. (source: Twitter: nytimes and CNN). This really doesn't sound good.

I guess a temporary solution is to--save money a bit even though the supposed solution to stimulate the economy is consumer spending, I doubt that anyone would want to spend right now... Thoughts?

That's all for now, I guess.

Wanna know what I'm doing? Follow me on Twitter: www.twitter.com/mhaby27

Take care!

Attempt to Search for a Job

Job-searching or job-hunting is a must? For me, yes.

I mean, not that I don't have a job right now. I do. I have a job. A minimum-wage-paying kind of job. A job inside the university I'm going to. Yeah, university... It's been... more or less 6 months since it's been officially called a university, so, cut me the slack--even for just a little bit (I just badly wanted to emphasize it).

Anyway, back to what I was saying. I need a job. An extra job. A not-minimum-wage-paying job. Why? Well, because I need the money. I need just a little bit of other people's time for just a bit of paper--and probably some coins with it... I just need to have a little something. I need to buy one thing. I just need a [insert very material, unimportant, not-to-be-prioritized object here] so badly that I might even sell my car. That's how badly I want this [thing].

Phew!

Okay, got that out of my system. What next? Well, stay tuned to all my adventures of frantically fishing out some fun and frustrations around some corner-- `Cause it's all about the F's in life. Gotta sleep! Ciao!

My Frantic Search for a Cure for Reality

Reality is one heck of a pain on the butt.

It's like one day you're all--"YEY! Spring break (or sem break) at last! I can rest! Rest! Rest! Rest... rest...", and then days pass by like minutes, and before you know it it's--ALMOST MONDAY and you have to get up from bed early in the morning, and push yourself (almost literally) to take a bath and eat breakfast (at least in my case)-- and, of course, to go to work or to school~ SCHOOL~ Not that I despise the... place. I actually love the... place. It's like my Libis or my... Mall of Asia. I love school. But, I may just be in a phase where all I want is to stay at home and do, literally, NOTHING.

Anyway, if only Einstein were here and still proving that time travel is no doubt possible then he might've been my all-time hero. But, like I said, reality IS one heck of a pain on the butt.

Juggling Between Blogs...

I do have a lot of blogs--and I mean BLOGS... not just entries...

Spring Break is passing by fast... I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL.
Though, it seems that I don't have any choice left, but to face my fears.
LOL.

Anyway, I'm going back to my blogging... with other blogs... ?!

Good Idea!

I just randomly thought of something genius! -- Well, it's just a minute proposal, and actually not that genius...





But, here goes...





I THOUGHT OF POSTING SOME PICTURES ALONG WITH MY BLOGS! YEY!





I just wanted to let you know. Seeing that I have a full LIST of followers...




[Right there...]

*crickets chirping*




(just hidden... LOL.)





(chirp, chirp)





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(apparently, it's just me and myself... talking to... m-y-s-e-l-f...)





anyhoot... that's my BIG news.

Time Flies By Fast... it's not even funny

Okay, so Spring Break is almost over, and I still feel that I haven't done any productive work--at all.

I ceased all productivity, found a rock and hid under it, and waited for my intellect to come back from its apparent AWOL-ity.

My brain is kind of back now, but still hung over from all the... "stuff." I am, therefore, currently on the edge of giving up--but, HEY! I fear even the thought of actually giving up...

It's the time. If only I had all the time in the world to do everything I want when I want... I'd probably be the luckiest person in the world. But, sadly, aside from its being unrealistic and uber ridiculous. I say that it is also increasingly unfair. I have things in life that most people don't--and probably would love to have, and here I am--complaining of petty issues of mine. So, I guess, I just have to suck it all up and continue living it...

Besides, TIME FLIES BY FAST anyway. Before you know it, there's nothing to complain about but gray hair.

Accounting. Yes? No? Account me not.

The title doesn't make sense, I know. Well, Accounting itself doesn't make sense--at all.
Well, yeah-- I am vying to be an accountant-- that is my major after all. But recently, I have not been on top of my game, especially in Accounting (and Music Theory).

Hey, I don't care about bonds payables or notes payables or stocks.
Give me a bonds certificate and I'll give you a smirk back-- or if I'm true to myself-- I'll give you a blank stare or a confused look. Whatever my mood is--I'll give you that, but you won't expect me to say-- "Hey! So what interest rate is this on?" Or, "When's the maturity date of this one?" I don't give a heck of these issues. Maybe I'm just that ignorant about financial jargons or whachamacallits, but like what the seamen say! NO PAIN NO GAIN (or was that the Army...??) Hmn... gotta think, gotta think.

Anyway, I'm off to twittering! Follow me @ www.twitter.com/mhaby27 , and I'm all YOURS. Ciao!

AU Theatre plan

Fundraising, fundraising, fundraising.
That is the plan.
But how can it stand?
This plan, this plan-- will it stand?

Anyway, my plan for a fundraising, for now, is a University Filmfest. *wink wink*

just got my pc back

i just got my pc back... i missed it so much...
just so everybody (as if anybody actually reads this) knows.

signing out,
mhaby

Buhhhrinnggg it ooooonnnnn!

So, it's Thursday today. My last day of the workweek, my 2nd to the last day of schoolweek. Yesterday, we didn't have classes. It was cancelled due to the thick snow, ice, and sleet that glazed the roads, which could actually cause really, really bad accidents. I opted to stay at home. I couldn't even get my car out of the parking area because it was covered with snow from top to bottom (not completely covered, though-- there was only 5 inches of snow).

Anyway, that aside, I quarrelled with my sister in the morning of... and my mom before I slept. It was a wonderful day of badgering, debating, and shouting, and blaming. I woke up not talking to any of them. They pretty much ganged up on me because of my apparent misbehaviour and disrespectfulness, which I won't deny whatsoever.

I am, however, very disappointed for my sister's outrageous immaturity and arrogance. Help me, God. I couldn't stand her for that moment. She was so---- mean. My mom, however, was trying to be "neutral" in a sense that... "Be patient with her... you were very wrong to so and so..." Thanks, mom, for being sooooo encouraging.

Anyway, my dad has no say in this, but I am very sure that he would stand by my mom no matter what. Even if he complains about her from time to time. Who am I to have someone to back me up anyway?!

Ayun, so ayan yung galit ko sa kanila. Ayan ang napapala 'pag binasta-basta lang ako... Kapag naramdaman kong namamaliit na ako, kahit sino pa kayo... hindi ko aatrasan, basta alam ko na tinatapakan na hair ko (masakit e, hindi ba ako lalaban?!).

Alam ko medyo selfish, vain, super ma-pride mga pinagsasasabi ko, pero hanggang dyan lang yung kaya kong ipaglaban. Sorry kasi sa kanila at nahuli akong nabuhay dito sa mundo... Sorry kung ako na lang yung ginagastusan. Pero sana naman diba, hindi isumbat saken ang mga ganitong kataga: "Nasa Amerika ka na! Kaya tumulong ka..." (nakakababa yun hindi sa pagkatao ko, kundi sa lahi ko at sa bansa ko dahil hindi lang DAHIL nasa Amerika ako... saka ako tutulong kaya sana hindi pinapamukha saken yun dahil hindi ko piniling mapunta ako sa Amerika...); "Hingi ka ng hingi, mula ngayon, wag ka nang hihingi saken ng kahit ano!" (oh cmon, SIS, kelan ba ako humingi ng AKO lang at PARA sa akin, at ng kahit ano galing sayo? Matagal ko nang nasesense na darating yung panahon na isusumbat mo saken lahat ng yan kaya matagal nang nakaset sa isip ko na hinding-hindi ako hihingi sayo kung pwedeng hindi humingi! So far, hindi ako humingi, kaya pwede ba, wag mayabang...); "Tingnan lang natin kung sinong susuporta sayo..." (BWAHAHAHAHA! ikaw ba? JOKER ka pala e...)


Anyway, yan ang iilan sa mga debate namen yesterday. I hope you had fun reading it.

Alam kong kakarmahin ako...

Ngayon, wala akong partner sa skit, pero all is well that ends well.

Thanks!

-mhaby- ^_^

Plea of the Non-Observant Me / Plea of the Ignorant Me

Are you a keen observer?

Do you notice the rock next to the very big tree that looks like a bunny?

Are you creative and can make cool things from total junk?

Can you make songs, like, out of nowhere?!

Can you remember where things were before you left?

Well, then, good for you!

I can't.

Presidential Inauguration. January 20th

So tomorrow is the Inauguration Day for Pres. Elect Barack Obama.
Personally, I am a nonpartisan person. I work for nonpartisan organizations, and I do not comment about anything on politics, the economy, or whatso... I just let it be-- unless this is MY country.

But, unfortunately, it is not my home country, I am not a citizen, and I've only been here for less than a couple of years. But, again, because of that, I will also pay tribute to one of the most important days for the American people.

Today is the MLK day, and tomorrow, the new president will officially be seated.

Long live America, and thank you for sharing your country to the world.

*i miss the Phils.*

almost there...

it's the middle of the month of January! 5 days to go and it's Spring Term!!! woooh!

I just bought my books today. It's sooooo expensive-- to me, an almost nonworking student with a lot of desires (which I cope with, and, of course, limit myself of (and am successful of doing so)) and loves to volunteer in very diverse fields-- it's just plain exorbitant. So, anyway, it doesn't matter now because I bought all that I was able to buy. I lacked 2 books, though. One was due to lack of 'capital', and the other one was just not available.

I still have to do a lot of side jobs, and I really hope that I would be able to finish them all before the due date because needless to say, it is really important for me to finish everything up.

That's all for now!

Signing out,
-mhaby! ^_^

happy new year!!!

whoa! hindi ako nakapagblog nung new year!!! tama ba?

anyway.. what's up with me and what's in for my 2009?

well, what happened during my first week of the year?? Eto lang naman:

1. Got my driver's license! (woooh!!!)
2. Drove my car. (woooohhh again!)
3. Called Jayjay for the first time ever. (call ako, type lang sya... sad x_x)
4. Nagkasakit ako... (ubo, plema, lagnat, sakit ng ulo... sad again...)
5. Of course, work, work, work... (Thank God I have work, kahit minimum wage for 8 hrs per week, not much... but at least meron.)

my goals for 2009:

1. Get a driver's license. (Done, done, done!!!)
2. Be able to drive alone--even sa highway! Grrr.
3. Get a part-time job. (Money in, hopefully)
4. Have some friends. (Really, not my priority)
5. Get my GED! (For less tuition.)
6. Get a scholarship somehow. (For, again, less tuition)
7. --- Can't think of anything so far.

Anyway, hope that keeps you updated in my little world.

This is Mhaby!
Signing Out. Ciao!