I'm having writer's block! mental mental mental block!
I can think of a lot of things to write--to cite or whatnot.
But, I have this scholarly desire to change my ways, change my style, and to make it more qualified as a top-rated written piece.
If only I had those ideas--without the emotion. I want to feel objective. I want to think objectively. I use my heart, my feelings, my moods in order to function, and I don't want that anymore. I want to learn to deal with the world. I want to be on top of things. I have never been in control when I was younger, and that's what I want desperately to change.
-- Just some random thoughts I have at this time-- middle of the day... pissed off with the mess all around me. Grrrr! I need to be alone to do stuff. It's my type of rebellion. Rebellion--it's not really my thing.
ciao.
mabelle.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Today, I'll live my life to the fullest...
Today, I'll live my life to the fullest.
Today, I'll think more of the future--not fearing about it, but embracing it; and I'll live to my present as if the bad is just a leeway to the good.
Today-- I am happy because whenever I'm not-- it's just another reason that life is more fun than I thought.
I have my dreams, and like everybody else, I hope it comes true. But, for now... just dreaming it and hoping it-- might not be as bad and frustrating as I think.
That's all.
Back to watching Ugly Betty. yay
Today, I'll think more of the future--not fearing about it, but embracing it; and I'll live to my present as if the bad is just a leeway to the good.
Today-- I am happy because whenever I'm not-- it's just another reason that life is more fun than I thought.
I have my dreams, and like everybody else, I hope it comes true. But, for now... just dreaming it and hoping it-- might not be as bad and frustrating as I think.
That's all.
Back to watching Ugly Betty. yay
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
the way things are...
when life refuses to go where you want it to...
Compromise.
I think that's the biggest word one should take in life.
I mean, things just don't go the way you want it exactly to go.
It's unfair.
But, there isn't anything you can really do when time just continues to run like it always does, and you continue to get older by the second.
Anyway, my point is. I should just live life with some regrets--because a life with no regrets, in my opinion, is not life at all.
-mhaby
Compromise.
I think that's the biggest word one should take in life.
I mean, things just don't go the way you want it exactly to go.
It's unfair.
But, there isn't anything you can really do when time just continues to run like it always does, and you continue to get older by the second.
Anyway, my point is. I should just live life with some regrets--because a life with no regrets, in my opinion, is not life at all.
-mhaby
Monday, May 18, 2009
to Virginia I go
Hey there!
I am currently in my sister's car with her driving and my cousin in the front passenger's seat. I just found out my grade for the Spring Semester. 3.89 is my overall GPA. It's getting lower and lower every semester. Hopefully, it ends here. I am going to let it end here.
The two last subjects that had the worst grades for this semester are two of the subjects that can be ACED easily. Both are no-brainers for the go-getters. I am not completely a go-getter, but I still was on my way to an A, when suddenly, I just was not interested anymore. I get confident, and then too confident. I guess my luck just doesn't work that well anymore. At least I have a 3.89 gpa anyway. I mean, it is better to be above 3.5 more than anything else.
Now that it is summer, it is time for me to recharge and gain my interest and motivation in studying again. I was just probably in the brink of breaking down, and that was my outlet. To cease good grades. Luckily though, it was during the end of the semester. But, I was tricked. Before that third test, I didn't know we were going to have a test! I only had 2 days to study, and in between, I had a show to be in. It's too unfair, but it's still my fault. I don't like blaming fate when fate was just trying to be fair to the whole--I mean, it's too much of a breeze for me to be a "star," and at the same time, be on top of everything. It's probably just not my destiny to be a "super person."
Anyhow, my mind is calm and collected now. I am ready to face my next semester, and I won't let myself down again. It's better to be hit on the back of the head early on than when you're almost there at the end. At least now, I know the consequence. But, it would have been a lot better if I didn't have to experience it. Oh well, I guess it's just too good to be true.
I am currently in my sister's car with her driving and my cousin in the front passenger's seat. I just found out my grade for the Spring Semester. 3.89 is my overall GPA. It's getting lower and lower every semester. Hopefully, it ends here. I am going to let it end here.
The two last subjects that had the worst grades for this semester are two of the subjects that can be ACED easily. Both are no-brainers for the go-getters. I am not completely a go-getter, but I still was on my way to an A, when suddenly, I just was not interested anymore. I get confident, and then too confident. I guess my luck just doesn't work that well anymore. At least I have a 3.89 gpa anyway. I mean, it is better to be above 3.5 more than anything else.
Now that it is summer, it is time for me to recharge and gain my interest and motivation in studying again. I was just probably in the brink of breaking down, and that was my outlet. To cease good grades. Luckily though, it was during the end of the semester. But, I was tricked. Before that third test, I didn't know we were going to have a test! I only had 2 days to study, and in between, I had a show to be in. It's too unfair, but it's still my fault. I don't like blaming fate when fate was just trying to be fair to the whole--I mean, it's too much of a breeze for me to be a "star," and at the same time, be on top of everything. It's probably just not my destiny to be a "super person."
Anyhow, my mind is calm and collected now. I am ready to face my next semester, and I won't let myself down again. It's better to be hit on the back of the head early on than when you're almost there at the end. At least now, I know the consequence. But, it would have been a lot better if I didn't have to experience it. Oh well, I guess it's just too good to be true.
-mhaby
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Major Change: Change of Major
I finalized my change of major last Tuesday, May 12, 2009. It turned out well--better than I expected, I suppose. I dropped two classes: Business Math and Interm Acctg. I, and added three: Media Theory, Interpersonal Comm, and ST: African-American. So, I have five classes for the fall instead of just four, which I'd rather have anyway. I could add one more--and have an overload again, but I don't have that much money. And, besides, I would get one summer class- I MUST, if I still want to graduate soon.
My new advisor--Mrs. B.D. is awesome.
Yesterday, I had my last two final exams. Awesome. Whether I did good or bad--I don't really want to think about it. I'll just wait for my grades to come out, and I'll know it then. But, for now, I just want to think nothing about school. After the exams, my cousin, my sister, and I went to the movies to watch Star Trek. I didn't expect to have a good time. I don't like Sci-Fi movies, but ironically, I think this movie rocked. I focused more on the actors and how they acted-- remarkable! They had great timing, and their lines were delivered brilliantly. I think the movie is cool. It deserves to be on the number 1 spot--at least I think it still is.
So, enough of that. Today is my official first day of summer. I need this break, but I also can't help thinking about looking for a job or scholarship. I really feel that I am going to be broke in no time because of my tuition fee. It is insane! I pray for the economy to be better soon. In the meantime, I will continue reading Shakespeare (the easy version of his plays and his life) and the diary of Virginia Woolf--and some random magazines.
Ciao for now!
Mhaby.
My new advisor--Mrs. B.D. is awesome.
Yesterday, I had my last two final exams. Awesome. Whether I did good or bad--I don't really want to think about it. I'll just wait for my grades to come out, and I'll know it then. But, for now, I just want to think nothing about school. After the exams, my cousin, my sister, and I went to the movies to watch Star Trek. I didn't expect to have a good time. I don't like Sci-Fi movies, but ironically, I think this movie rocked. I focused more on the actors and how they acted-- remarkable! They had great timing, and their lines were delivered brilliantly. I think the movie is cool. It deserves to be on the number 1 spot--at least I think it still is.
So, enough of that. Today is my official first day of summer. I need this break, but I also can't help thinking about looking for a job or scholarship. I really feel that I am going to be broke in no time because of my tuition fee. It is insane! I pray for the economy to be better soon. In the meantime, I will continue reading Shakespeare (the easy version of his plays and his life) and the diary of Virginia Woolf--and some random magazines.
Ciao for now!
Mhaby.
Monday, May 11, 2009
2 DOWN!
Finals week!!! I have 6 finals this week. It's horrible. It's worse than what most people have. I really need a life soon. My two tests today are also horrible. I may have a low grade in Theo (just for the test) and Accounting (OMG! and it's not only me...it's all of us... it's just so tiring to do--that's why I'm changing majors. My brain will be fried, and I'm not even halfway there!). I'm changing to Corporate Communications with, of course, a business minor, since I have a lot of credits for that course, 2 more classes from it, and I have the minor already. Awesome! I'm so excited with my change. I guess Math just isn't for me. I mean, I get it, but I just don't want to do it in my free time--nosirreee... Nope. I'm better at speaking and writing than computing. I guess that's the most I could put of it. After all these, I guess I'm gonna have to talk to Robert. I was kinda mean a while ago, not sharing my reasons fully. But, oh well, what can I do-- I was placed on the spot. I usually function better when on the spot (this is actually not true), but things have different circumstances from time to time.
Anyway, SUMMER is almost here. The first half of summer, I have for myself. The second half, I have to take one class--Business Law, to lessen the load for my minor. I hope my talk with Beth tomorrow would be GREAT, and also, I hope Sue would give me one more spot in her class. That would be awesome! I'll be exercising my voice the whole summer, and I would certainly be reading a lot. I should. I'll be a Communications Major soon.
Truly,
Mhaby
*The pic is during a Broadway trip to New York with my good friend, Natalie. ^_^
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