When you see yourself happy... finally... :)

Okay, so I cried.

But, for the first time in what seems like the LONGEST time-- it wasn't because I was sad... It was because when I looked in the mirror today-- I saw someone I haven't seen in a long time... ME. Happy. A genuinely happy me. Contentment... I saw contentment. I found myself again.

I've been praying for this in a long while and finally I got what I wanted... Myself.

It may seem ridiculous to you, but things changed, and suddenly I lost myself, and ever since I've been soul-searching, trying to find what I lost.

They say that when you die (or almost die), you would see your life flashing back at you. I had the same experience, except that this time, I was away from danger.

This is what happened:

Music was playing. I was dancing like the usual silly me. I looked in the mirror being silly and smiling like usual. Nothing extraordinary in the outside, but I just stopped-- looked at myself... smiled even more... and then for some unknown reason... I fell to my knees and cried-- I felt so relieved. I felt so renewed. I felt that everything that I've been carrying this whole time is gone. A huge flashback of me just being so hopeless and depressed came to me...

I remember not having anyone...
or anything that could make me happy.

But, as I stayed there in front of the mirror... I realized I have everything now. I have my friends-- my dearest friends. My friends who have been there during the lowest point of my life. Friends who've lent their shoulders, ears, and time to me... no matter how silly or how childish I got.

I have my family who have always been there.... even though they can get annoying and boring at the same time. My family who has been very patient with my attitude and stubbornness.

I have all I could ever ask for. And, finally, I see it now. I'm absolutely thankful that finally I got what I wished for-- Happiness.

Love to the nth,

Mhaby

My Goals for 2012

Okay, these are some of the goals that I have for the year:

1.)  DOG
2.) KAYAK
3.) WII
4.) CPA EXAM
5.) SOCIAL DANCING
6.) MO' Money (cause I'm broke)


--Mmmkay... this is all I got for now!

Ciao!

Love to the nth,

Maria

Day 9 - Letter to the person you would like to meet

"You are sunlight and I moon // Joined by the gods of fortune // Sharing the sky // We have been blessed you and I..."

Lea Salonga - the original Miss Saigon

Credits to broadwaystagedoor.blogspot.com.

She, like Sandra Oh, is one of the people I really admire. Not only is her smile amazing, but she has a beautiful voice, a beautiful soul, and a beautiful personality. She is also obviously very beautiful herself. 

She has taken on roles in Broadway for Miss Saigon and Les Miserables, and she has taken roles on screen both in Hollywood and the Pinilakang Tabing (Philippine's equivalent for Hollywood). She's versatile and clearly talented. Smart and spontaneous. I don't know what else to say, but I like her and I hope that someday I could play Kim in Miss Saigon-- if an opportunity comes up. Just not now... cause, I really don't have the time for it unfortunately :-(

So, here's my letter to the person I would like to someday meet and have an actual conversation with:

Credits to disney.wikia.com.

Dear Ms. Salonga,

I'm sorry I don't know your married name. You are amazing-- thank you for sharing your talent to the world and for being sooo good at it! I hope to be like you: humble, confident, beautiful, and witty. Please don't stop being who you are.

Sincerely,

Maria 

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Short, but sweet.

This is all for now!!! 

Love to the nth,

Mabelle

Cheers to the New Year!

Good bye, 2011; Hello, 2012.

"GOOD RIDDANCE" < This was what I was going to entitle this entry as.

I haven't had a lot of time or desire to write in this blog in 2011. But, as tradition goes, the first entry of the year is sorta kinda gonna be a closure for the year that just passed and an introduction for the year that has just begun.

2011. Well, you very well know how this year went. I have nothing else to say. (If you don't know what I'm talking about-- it's all in the 19 entries that I have written for the year.)

2012. I have lots of hope for this year. This year should be great.

Anyway, that's as much as I could talk about for my entry... HAHA.

Oh fine--here are a few bits and pieces of me:

1.) Marc and Angel Hack Life -- A high school friend shared this link to me after we had a talk over Facebook, mostly about my rantings and craziness, just before the year ended. To my surprise, this blog actually helped me (by A LOT) get through the year. If you think about it, almost everything in this blog is common sense-- but it's also the most commonly forgotten food for thoughts. It makes you  think and appreciate life even more! Well, at least that's what it did to me. I highly recommend this.

2.) I'll be writing about 3 entries today (including this one) to jump start my 2012 blogging year.

3.) I might be getting a dog this year! Woo-hoo! :-) *fingers crossed*

4.) 2011 - I learned how to solve a Rubik's cube (thanks to my good friend, Melanie).

5.) Apparently, I'm Italian.


Okay! I think that's about it for now...

On to my next entry!

Love to the nth,

Mabelle