My last boyfriend did not believe in soul mates, love at first sight, destiny--or any of that 'crap', but he couldn't 'see' a future in us. Funny, cause, he didn't really even try-- and I thought he didn't even believe in fate... (ya know, if you're thinking that his logic is different from my logic--I agree... but I still think that he's talking about fate. Please don't argue... just do something else other than criticize my senselessness).
Going back to what I just started talking about--soul mates. I wonder where this person is. I finally told myself that I am open to dating. I've been ready to date ever since my last REAL boyfriend. That was sorta my initiation to dating. It was a short training, and did not lead to anything physical, but I do believe that that was more than enough to know that I should be more cautious and wise about relationships and dating. It's a strategy. It's a game. Frankly, when it comes to games--I get REALLY lucky the first few rounds, and then I slowly lose the lead, then finally, when I get the hang of it, I can get REALLY good at it.
Currently, I'm happy about my state of being--single, contented, FINALLY happy. I do miss the times when I talk on the phone for hours, smiling at every single detail of someone else's life. I miss feeling special and cared for. I miss being said sweet-nothings to. I just miss being important to someone else--like I'm a priority.
I do not own this image, and I do not know where I got it from.
Don't get me wrong, I also miss having A PRIORITY--other than my family, of course. My closest friends can wait =) They have lives, too--probably much better than mine.
Anyway, I just wanted to talk about my thoughts for today. I think about it often--love and relationships, dating and being ready, deep thoughts of the future--family and career. I do hope to find my special someone soon, but timing and patience is always crucial when it comes to these things. I still trust God and Saint Valentine (or Saint Jude). I know it will come. I must be wise and patient. I have a career, family, and friends--so all is well for me right now. No complaints--only gratitude.
That's all for now.
"You know you're in love when you could not sleep because reality is finally better than your dreams..." -Dr. Seuss
Btw, I heard it's gonna snow tomorrow. I'll be indoors for the most part anyway. Thanks for reading!
Love to the nth,
Mabelle
