It takes a lot for too little...

I read something really interesting from a friend's photo caption:

"...you'll have your heart broken probably more than once
and it gets harder every time... you'll cry because time is passing too fast....
so take [as many pictures as you can, laugh as hard as you can], and love like you've never been hurt..." -P.K.

He had a picture of a beautiful sunset for this caption. It was as awesome as he is.

I mentioned this because I've been thinking about life in general. How will my life go from here? Where will it lead me to? Where am I going? What am I apt to do?

I am usually an optimistic person--and I don't mean to be pessimistic, but the thought of the future scares the bejeezus out of me. I don't understand why I was given something that I've wanted for a looong time, but leaves me with something that I know will be gone sooner or later.

I know it takes time to decode the meaning of whatever life brings me, whatever God gives me--and all I have to do is be patient.

Patience...
I think this is by far the hardest and most challenging word in my dictionary right now. I can't seem to be patient. It just doesn't seem to be me. However, patience is not only a virtue, but it's something that can be developed. It's something that can be acquired. All I need is discipline and faith. I need faith that the special people in my life would be patient with me as well. I need faith and strength to know that I would not be hurt.

But, if I do get hurt, then all I have to ask is:

"is this really what you wanted? ...then I have to let you go."

...and to that, I would stick to a promise:
"I'll be keeping all my fears, though I'm drowning in my tears with the thought of a life without you... but if someday you'll need a friend, I PROMISE I won't let you down..."  

I learned that though life brings you many heartbreaks... it's okay to still love again--to love unconditionally like you've never loved before. Love doesn't need time.

And since I'm here... I declare that I love life, challenges, love... I love to love... because whatever hurt I would feel in the long run-- I would not regret (or at least try not to) the fact that I have loved and tried and fought. I took a risk--and whatever I don't get is wisdom I will gain.

To my Special J: Though I don't exactly know what love is,
and though I don't expect anything in return...
before it's too late--I just wanna say that I love you.

To all my friends: I love you all! And, thank you for being there! :-)

To my family: For all the support, love, and unconditional care, thank you and I love you.

<3

Mabelle / Maria

To my family:

Hi Parents and Ate!!! :)

Thanks for everything you have done for me. If it weren't for you, I wouldn't have succeeded with my goals at all. You've been my inspiration and motivation to do more than I thought I could. I am who I am today mostly because of you.

College and life were challenging in general, but you always were there to support and love me. I can't thank you enough for all those. Thank you for understanding my eccentricities, and thank you for being my pillars in all the stages of my life.

I am fortunate to have had a wonderful and united family.

Life is good--however short. I am blessed by the spirit and glory of God.

I am humbled and strengthened by the challenges and obstacles I have faced throughout the years. Wisdom is what I gained from every one of them.

I hope to return the favors in whatever way I can in the future. I love you and I will always respect you.

Wishing for many more years of unity and love,

Mabelle

I apologize

Okay, after that very LONG entry...

I would like to make a special entry for my special J:

Heyy,

I know I've told you this before--a lot of times. Thank you and I'm sorry.
For everything.

Mariaaaa :-)


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Anyway, he knows this already, but I just wanted to emphasize it more :) He deserves a lot of praise.
He has been very patient, attentive, respectful, and kind to me despite my weirdness, fussiness, undeniable impatience, and irritability. Although I can be really overbearing... he tries to make sense of it (which in the end, he couldn't, but that's the fun part ;-] ).

Well, I tried not to be cheesy--but thanks Joey Bear. :-) You're a special mention once again in this lonely blog world of mine. Life is short, you know, so I just wanna say as much as I can.

That's all for now!!

xoxo,

M.

Some Random Entry

Okay, so, here are the updates:

-I graduated magna cum laude (3.89 gpa) on May 14, 2011.
-I've been looking for jobs even before then.
-I've applied for the CPA examination--hoping to get my NTS (notice to schedule) in 6 weeks or less (*fingers crossed*)
-I've walked along the Gring's Mill to Red Bridge trail (first with Joe and then with my parents).
-I've walked along the Saw Mill to Mansion trail at Nolde Park (with my parents).
-I've been cantoring regularly at St. Anthony's every Saturday evenings.
-I've... etc etc etc...

Clearly I've had quite a lot since I last blogged.

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I'm in VA at the moment-- really treating this as a vacation since I will have to focus on studying for the FAR part of the CPA exam (my target is 7 weeks -- 6 weeks is just pushing it). I'm with my family, and as usual, the drive was LONG!!!

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My goals in life are ambitious, but simple at the same time. My career goal is to be a partner of a firm. However, before that, I would really like to know the nooks and crannies of the public accounting world. Public accounting is clearly the career path I would like to get into--specifically taxation and international accounting (which is a good combo nowadays since IFRS is well underway).

There was a time when I wanted to travel the world--but I realized that I disliked traveling A LOT--unless it's work-related. I would like to live wherever there is less crime and more peace and cordiality. I would most likely want to live in a family-friendly suburban area (whether or not I work in an urban area). I would like to have a family with hopefully 2 children and a loving, family-oriented, and responsible husband. (LOL--THIS IS TMI!!!)

Anyway, those are my goals for now. I used to have really career-minded goals, but I now think that having a family and settling down would probably make me happier. I still have hopes to help someone achieve his or her dreams by sponsoring him or her to college. I still am a strong believer of education.

Well, that's all for today!!! :-)

Thanks again for reading! Stay strong and happy!!! <3

Love to the nth power,

Mabelle

2 months~

2 months!

Finally.

I usually don't like to be cheesy. I despise romantic comedies for that, but sometimes I like being a girl--and girly ME is typically cheesy.

This post, like my previous one, is dedicated to my Joey.

All I want to say is... Happy 2 months, Joey Bear!!! :)


Looking forward to the 3rd month :-)

xoxo,

Maria