If I should choose a metaphor to describe my life right now, I would choose an iPod shuffle. Every day is a different song played and not every message is well-represented.
That's my life right now.
I send and receive mixed signals. I tell people my different opinions that do not always mesh--I change my mind almost every second of every day. I kind of knew that I always have been indecisive, but the fickleness of my mind seems to be getting worse as I grow older. My theoretical reason is my youth and my immaturity--that I think is getting worse as well.
Look, I don't know what is happening to me exactly. Is there something that I need to prove?
Am I really that predictable?
I know that I still badly need to find myself and learn who I really am and what my purpose in life really is... but how can I do that when there are all these limitations?
I guess I'll just have to try harder.
...even my thoughts couldn't form a good ending... or a good entry.
I need change.
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