When you see yourself happy... finally... :)

Okay, so I cried.

But, for the first time in what seems like the LONGEST time-- it wasn't because I was sad... It was because when I looked in the mirror today-- I saw someone I haven't seen in a long time... ME. Happy. A genuinely happy me. Contentment... I saw contentment. I found myself again.

I've been praying for this in a long while and finally I got what I wanted... Myself.

It may seem ridiculous to you, but things changed, and suddenly I lost myself, and ever since I've been soul-searching, trying to find what I lost.

They say that when you die (or almost die), you would see your life flashing back at you. I had the same experience, except that this time, I was away from danger.

This is what happened:

Music was playing. I was dancing like the usual silly me. I looked in the mirror being silly and smiling like usual. Nothing extraordinary in the outside, but I just stopped-- looked at myself... smiled even more... and then for some unknown reason... I fell to my knees and cried-- I felt so relieved. I felt so renewed. I felt that everything that I've been carrying this whole time is gone. A huge flashback of me just being so hopeless and depressed came to me...

I remember not having anyone...
or anything that could make me happy.

But, as I stayed there in front of the mirror... I realized I have everything now. I have my friends-- my dearest friends. My friends who have been there during the lowest point of my life. Friends who've lent their shoulders, ears, and time to me... no matter how silly or how childish I got.

I have my family who have always been there.... even though they can get annoying and boring at the same time. My family who has been very patient with my attitude and stubbornness.

I have all I could ever ask for. And, finally, I see it now. I'm absolutely thankful that finally I got what I wished for-- Happiness.

Love to the nth,

Mhaby